Today, I heard some devastating news from one of my friends. He told me that a kid from Brandon ended his life by jumping off of the elementary school building. So many emotions cameover me when I heard this news. I have a few friends that not too long ago graduated from Brandon and my first thoughts automatically went to worrying about if these friends knew him. One person specifically came to my mind right away and I just had to make sure she was doing ok if she heard the news. I have never heard of this kid before, but I felt saddened for his family, his friends, and other families who have ever lost a family memeber from suicide.
I have never understood how a person could experience so much pain wanting to resort to ending their lives. Life is a precious thing. You hear about a newborn living only a few hours after being born, but then you hear a person living a long life of 110 years and you just try to find answers to why. Everything comes down to the three letter word WHY, but that small word is the question to so many situations. Why does some people die from cancer? Why do certain children have to suffer because other kids decide it is funny to bully another? Why do people feel like their is a certain image that everybody has to pertray just to please outsiders? I mean what is the world coming to where everybody worries so much on other people that their happiness depends not on themselves, but on what others think of them.
We live in a world full of so much hate I am just disgusted. People are so trapped in so much pain and suffering that no matter if they are surrounded by so much love they neglect to see it all. It is like the love and happiness is blurred from their vision because they are so tormented by the struggles deep down within themselves. Sometimes the pain is so excruciating that you or I or any type of medication can not even help heal a person. Being in the profession that I am, I have changed my perception on the use of medications. I have found that medications just masks symptoms, but it deep down doesn't fix what is broken. One main type of medications I'm talking about is ANTIDEPRESSANTS.
I use to have mixed emotions on the use of antidepressants because I have seen the good that has come from these types of meds, but I have also seen the bad. Our world is totally for the use of medications, but in reality the side effects of some medications aren't worth the reason for why you are taking it in the first place. I have family and friends on Antidepressants and I also have had friends lose a loved one because of being on one. There are more better ways to cope with problems instead of being put on a medication because it is just covering up the true problem.
I can not tell you why people do the things they do. I can not say why this young boy who had a full life ahead of him decided to take his own life because only that person knows. Everybody who has or is thinking of suicide has asked for help or has hinted at it once or a few times. It isn't always straight forward "I need Help," they do it in so many different ways. I am a prime example of a person who has asked for help and has struggled through life, but the only answer I found was I could only help myself nobodyelse. I'll being writing another blog so I can go more into depth about myself. It will be very personal and it is meant to all be out on the table, but for I'll just wrap up this blog for now.
My prayers go out to the family and friends of Kendall who recently passed away. My thoughts and prayers are also with the familes and friends who have ever had a loved one feel like they had no way out, but to end their lives. They are all in heaven right now hanging out with Jesus and they are in a better place right now. They all will be missed and loved until they are one day reunited back with their loved ones. You all will never be forgotten
